I admit I am missing you like crazy too

Ever since the day Dodong left for the hot sands of the UAE (it's been exactly 437 days that we have been apart), I often catch myself daydreaming of him and of us. The things that we did together when he was home and the things that we could do together when he comes home.

Sometimes you may think that these are the things that are out of this world, but then when you've been apart for so long, you get to value the simple things that the two of you do as a couple. Things and gestures that I wouldn't have even noticed, or more so given value to when he was here. But in reality these are what make you go crazy when the I'm-missing-you-so-bad feeling kicks in (which is most probably what Dodong is going through at the moment.).

Now that Dodong is going gaga over missing me, again it really breaks my heart to "see" (because I don't get to see him, see him) or rather hear him going through this. I know that this trial has and is continuing to make our relationship stronger by the day. It is definitely not cliche when they say: "Absence makes the heart grow fonder." Because it does! It so does make the heart grow fonder. Yes, crazy-in-love, head-over-heels fonder…at least for us.

And so what are the things I do miss like crazy and look forward to at the same time?

I miss holding his hand.

Dodong's got soft hands with a calyo (Help! What is the english word for calyo?) on his left thumb because he is left-handed. I just miss wrapping my fingers around his. Haaaaaay. The comfort that his hand brings. I am at a loss for words to describe it.

I miss giving him gigil hugs!

Even before we were officially a couple, this is a thing I would do with him. I like to give him gigil hugs. I am having a hard time translating gigil in english so maybe somebody can give me a hand perhaps? Nosebleed. I miss his big bear arms wrapped around me, sometimes even twirling me around ala Hollywood movie.

I miss his scent.

For some strange reason I do. I heard from a friend (and maybe read up on it in some magazine) that the scent of the one you love really lingers. From time to time, I get a whiff of Dodong's newly bathed and shaven self (of course, he take a bath before we go out!)…it drives me absolutely crazeeeeehhh! Oh yeah, I also cannot forget his signature Michael Jordan cologne. I have been giving him that cologne since waaay back. Just to stock up on the stuff. I guess it's been phased out.

Last but not the least, I am looking forward to spending each waking moment with him.

We have been together for 7 years and counting and it is only now that we have seriously been talking about the Big "W" or the Big "M" or tying the knot or whatever code name you may give it. The big she-bang of the wedding is definitely something to look forward to. I've even started to create a vision board of my dream wedding. Sharing with you some of my fave stuff:

But, of course, the thing I am most looking forward to is to spend each waking moment with Dodong beside me, sharing everything (well, except a girl or, worse, a boy…no threesomes for me!). I know that I want to spend the rest of my life (what's left of it) with him. Dodong is the One. I just know. I've prayed for this 7 years and 2 months  and 24 days ago.

Dodong will be coming home this November. I am really just excited for November to come. Time flies so fast lately so I think in just a blink of an eye, Dodong will be here to hold my hand, hug me, kiss me once more…well, not just once of course. Hehehe! Please let it be November already!

What do you miss and look forward to when he comes home?

Love the distance,

Inday I. Nagintay

P.S. Of course, I miss kissing him too!

Love the distance,

Inday I. Nagintay