The Bigness of Small Gestures

I've been feeling down in the dumps the past couple of days, grappling with feelings of self pity and exhaustion from work and personal projects. I'm not sure if I have let go of a few of the many things that are on my plate or I just have to embrace and accept this reality or I need to get myself cloned ASAP.

I did not want to bother Dodong with my emotional struggles, trying to keep my composure as long as I can. I knew he had his own battles already. But the other night, I burst out into tears. I couldn't contain in anymore. I had to let out all my bottled up feelings of self pity and exhaustion…

I was dumbfounded on how much comfort and encouragement he gave me! It was such a stark contrast from the harsh verbal spanking (Yes, he can be brutally frank) I usually get when I crawl into the dark, forbidden holes of self pity.

That night, I showed him part of a big, big project I've been working hard on these past days and he says "The ____ is so you. Simple and colorful." Oh be still my heart. Thank you for appreciating the simple radiance in me.

The following morning, while I was in the middle of a big meeting, I received a text message: "Hi dear. Kaya mo yan (You can do it.)" I could feel the tears welling up, touched by the sweet words. My heart just did a somersault. Thank you verbalizing your belief in my abilities.

See how the smallest of gestures can create extraordinary impact?

THANK YOU.

Love the distance,

Inday I. Nagintay